Last weekend Aaron and I drove through the mountains and went to the house in Chelan Washington,. The drive through the mountains was totally amazing the fall colors were at an all time high. I was thinking how beautiful the colors were and so many thoughts were running through my head.
We have many evergreen trees they never change colors they are strong and for the most part unchangeable . Then there is the multitude of other trees with all the vibrant colors of fall that we all love. driving through the mountains I was looking at all the trees evergreen trees all along side the mountain and splashes of color through out the forrest. I was lost in thought. the maple trees change they are stable, they undergo a transformation every year. they can't stop this transformation it happens. They could scream and protest but their leaves are still going to change. I feel that way with things in my life I have undergone a transformation and i didn't like all the changes but I had no control over the circumstances in my life. they things I though were stable ended up changing and I had to adjust to the changes, no matter how much the changes hurt I was at a loss to stop them. When others look at all the changes will they see the beauty created like we do when we see the changing leaves?
I was thinking about the unchanging evergreen tree the stable tree. There are so many things in my life that I want to be described as stable. My love for my husband and kids that needs to remain stable. My dedication to my Family- Stable those are the stable things in my life. I wish I could add my relationship to God in this stable area but it is changing. I feel so alone in this journey of change and instability in my life.
I question how so many things I thought were stable areas of my life appear to be in stable. How things change. the journey Aaron I have been on has been a changing one but is now stable.
I hope to leave a legacy of stability through the changes of life a nice compramise if I do say so myself.
