Emotionally spent

Ok I have been through the wringer and wonder how to pick up the pieces. I am filled with so much confusion on how to handle everything that is coming with what has happened to Julia. My mind doesn't rest I want to just scream!!I lay in bed and the anxiety begins to sweep over me like a heavy blanket that I can't move. I feel so alone that i wonder do people care? I am carrying this huge heart ache and only my family knows my pain.Can I take one day??