The last 24 hours have been very crazy here at my house. Yesterday my sister left to go back to Rockford I was feeling sad and lonely. While I was driving my phone beeped at me so I looked and somehow I had two voice mails. and one was my father in law, the other voice mail is the one that shook my world upside down again. I was thinking about the last time my sister came to visit me the day she left to go home was the day that I found out about my husbands "problem". This time I get a call telling me that my husband was thrown in the hole with no idea what happened. I didn't know if some one had hurt him. I paced the floors all afternoon and into the evening and kept wondering is he safe. I drove to Tacoma today to see if they would let me have a visit. I got a 2 visit. It is crazy we have no idea why he is there and what he is accused of. We were supposed to sign his release plan on Monday so we had a day of release.He was supposed to come home in 35 days> Is he coming home???
I never seem to see the end of light. There is a small glimmer of hope and then it is crushed in a instant. My world is constantly turning and to be quite honest I am feeling motion sickness from the constant turning upside downl I haven't slept in 24 hours and I have to work full time this week.
Crazy Monday on the way! Starts with Julia's therapy and then working all day and all I want to do is curl up and just stay away from me. I don't want to be out at all let me just exist. Wondering how and why? I just need to go !
My husband compared the the last three years to a horror film the beginning all is well and them the drama begins the midel of the movie is just dealing with the all the small hits that keep comming. the end you think the end is in sight and then the twist comes and you say to yourself I sure didn't see that comming. I sure am ready for the happy ending.
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